Mir Saleem Arif's

" Dont be afraid to love, Don't be afraid to get hurt, It's a part of the process.  You learned from it." 

"My first girl in my life" 

An experience I had as an adolescent that affected my self-esteem would be maturing and growing faster, when i was on my 8th class , I was with my classmates (School Friends) namely: Mubashir Bhat, Ali Hussain,Zahoor ,Basharat, Manzoor Bhat,Yunis,Muzamil,  we're enrolled in a school where in my time was  co-education (WoodLand House School).We are not aware of any attraction of opposite sex.  We played with girls as we played with boys until one experience i had that made me aware of that physical attraction. Our group usually went to cutting classes, stayed outside fighting with boys, a lot of fun- playing  and frolicking in a lake for swimming.  A childhood filled with memories. We're also late to go inside the classroom that is why we all seated on the last row of the class and there are girls infront of us.  we have so much fun and I always teased the two girls infront of me. When i was about to slap the back of my girl classmate she abruptly faced on me and accidentally my hand is on her breast, i cupped her breast- it was so soft and it made me feel as i was electrecuted with a high voltage of sensation. Bullseye! that was the first time i felt erection.  

On my 9th class, i was on the 'A' section but i saw a beautiful girl on 'B' section of same class (9th grade) that made my heart pounded so fast when i saw her. I was so fascinated with her looks and i told my friends that im really in love with this girl named Jasmine.  They advised me to write her a love letter and i did it.  With the help of a boy from the 6th class my letter was given to Jasmine and when the boy came back, he said that Jasmine will reply on my love letter after the classes finish.  My friends congratulated me because Jasmine accepted my letter. We've waitied for the last period of the class and there the boy came with the reply and there it was stated that she was also in love with me, the feelings are mutual and without any doubts im so happy and my friends was also so glad that they told everyone in the class that i have already a girlfriend named Jasmine. I was in my room thinking what to say to Jasmine when we will see each other face to face but to my surprised Jasmine came to me with her friend and confronted about the spreading news that we had already relation.She asked, when you did propose me. When I did accept you? I was so embarrassed and blushing furiously. She didn't gave me time to explained to her everything but right at that moment i told her that i love her, she answered, you make it all so simple ha but I will never be your girlfriend ever, not at all. Then she went away and I was extremely dejected when she said it.  I called all my friends and looked for my bearer (the boy on 6th grade) we gave him lesson that he couldn't forget for his lifetime.  

 My love for Jasmine became deeper that my heart pounded like a bird on my chest every time i saw her. I tried my very best to let her know how much i love her. I courted her, pleaded and even begged her love, I wanted her desperately that time but the more I pursued the more she was aloof to me.  She found me exasperating each time she saw me.  She was always falling over me like a big panting dog aching to play and only successding in making myself an intolerable nuisance.  She did everything she could to discourage me, until finally reached the point of being quite rude to me because I made stamp of "Mir Saleem Arif loves Jasmine" and placed it on every desk in the classroom but I didn't seem to mind it.

Years went by rapidly, after our 12th grade Jasmine got work in an office of KASHMIR FOREST LTD., it is a chit fund-It was exactly located at their house because one room was for rent. where people deposit the money and it will be double after three (03) long years. It was really enticing because of the interest you will get after 3 years. I went to visit Jasmine in that office and from  there I knew that only Jasmine and the manager are in that office.  The manager is always out to do the market and promote their company and Jasmine left alone to accomodate clients and as  I glance on her after one and a half years i felt butterflies fluttered in my stomach, I still besotted with her. The next thing i knew I proposed to her again but she refuses to understand my feelings, she had done it so many times. I was disheartened and hopeless already.  My love for her will never be reciprocated but she offered friendship because she asked my help for more clients.  I encouranged all my friends to venture their account to that office too and every 15 days I went to her office to see her.  One day she mentioned that her elder sister needs  work and i told her to let her sister come to my office the next day. She's also beautiful as Jasmine and her name was 141187919 and I make her my secretary.  Our work is smooth sailing but sometimes i thought of courting her too and modesty aside i love her sister Jasmine. Thanks i was in control and it never happened.

Everything happens for a reason.  I was broken hearted from Jasmine but it was God's will because I deserved a blessing in the life of Rehana. The woman I had fallen so desperately in love with since I met her in our neighbor's daughter wedding. She's a rare vision of beauty. She's so sweet and innocent.  She made my life worth living.

( You can read my full true love story on the other page)

"EPILOGUE"

Jasmine was already married and I saw her once at the bank when i went for vacation three years ago.(2006)  The charm and her beauty was all gone.  We just exchanged "Hi and Hello".  There's no regret on my side, my feelings towards her was gone long time ago.

Rehana my life, knew the entire story about Jasmine because i told her everything.  I want to be honest with her on the first place. I believed HONESTY and TRUST are the strongest foundation for a relationship.

"A piece of advise"

If someone whom you love and cherish with broke with you, even how painful it is - just move on your life- there's a reason behind it- He/she might  not yet the perfect match for you. God planned our destiny before we were born. Some dreams and love are never meant to be.

"The best use of life is love.  The best expression of love is time.  The best time to love is now" 

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